Do You Believe In Horoscopes?

If you asked most people if they believed in horoscopes they would say no. I have been reading my horoscopes since being a little girl when we use to get the courier news at school and at home. I'll admit some days they were pretty not- relatable, meaning 2 days out of 7 I couldn't relate to them.But for the most part, I stand by them and I'm 30 years old now.Now, at days with all this new technology, there are so many different horoscope sites.They all say different things about one signs it just seems like a scam. Since school days I have found a site that works out for me and I can't believe how on point it always is.Not just for my sign but for my fiance too, to the point every morning he asks me to read or send his sign to his phone. Laugh at me all you want but I live by my horoscope from a google app but it's a certain Icon. Yahoo, AOL, California physics those sites never worked for me when it came to daily,c career, and love scopes but the yearly scopes were pretty ok.But this google app is always on point
it's scary and exciting at the same time.

They say watch what you say because you can speak it into existence but what if at the end of the day you read your horoscope and it basically explained what happened through out your day? Would you still think it's crazy or is there some truth behind scopes and numbers and signs all around us?I've heard a few heavy Christians say " If you read your horoscope or go to a physic your messing with the devil, not gods way. God is the only way that hookus pookus is like playing with voodoo". Everyone is entitled to their own opinion and I use to want my palm read too but I'll just stick to my google app horoscope. I won't stand with those who say horoscope reading is the devil's work because I been blessed and motivated more times then being disappointed that sometimes I get mad if I don't read my scope lol in the morning to prepare myself for the day. I know it sounds extreme but if it says" Today drama will come your way but try to stay away from it and occupy yourself with things you like to do etc" In my eyes when I see that drama coming my way I know exactly what to do and it won't dampen my day.

How many of you know what I'm talking about? How many of you believe there are some things in the universe that are deeper than the eye can see? How many of you believe there is a dark side but horoscopes aren't one of them? If you're curious to check out your sign check out the google store app "Daily horoscopes" and let me know if it relates to you or not and leave a comment below.

In A fast Pace World How Do You Show Your Appreciation For Life

 How many of you heard of the saying " Thank God every day for you waking up in the morning"? How many of you actually do it with a clear mind and open heart, or do you just get up and go?  They say our society is lost and everything people do is all for social media now. No one knows how to enjoy road trips, concerts, etc precious moments without posting about it, but I believe social media has its pros and cons. Cameras have always been around to capture moments, we just had to wait for them to get printed and view them at family functions out of the album. I believe we as people are old enough and know exactly why we share what we share with the world now. Some people do it to brag and as for most it's a way of showing family members all across the world " hey I'm doing ok look at what I'm up to". Sharing your life with the world has it's up's and downs. You will come across public opportunities and there will be public setbacks. But with all that goes on in your daily life do you take the time to set aside to look at how far you've come and how you got there?


         I myself feel lost at times and don't always take the time to say "Thankyou you heavenly father for waking me up". Sometimes it feels strange for me to have that one on one with him when my days are going ok. It comes off much easier when I'm down and out and feel helpless and I drop everything and breakdown. I know I was taught to call on him for any and everything being I was raised in a Christian home and in the church but I never felt connected to him in the way my church and grandmother told me I should be.  The pressure of seeing and feeling what my church at that time felt about God and then feeling it was fake on their behalf kept me astray. But my grandmother, ugh, the love and passion she has for God always kept me open and she's a good woman. There is never a fake vibe from her about her lord savior Christ. She would always say " He may not come when you call on him but he's always on time". In away that stuck in my head growing up to call on him, but for me, that meant "in desperate need ONLY".  Judge me all you want people but I know I show my appreciation for life in a different way.

      Being the strong minded, loving person that I am I can say I sort of considered God's feelings and don't want to depend on him for every little thing lol if that makes sense to you'll. Not, calling on him as much I see it as "look at how you created me, I got this". Trust and believe when I look at the sky, the environment around me and close my eyes and take a deep breath and exhale I'm spiritually saying " Thank you, Lord, Thank you, God, Thank you, Jesus"! Sometimes we don't always know the words to say but actions speak louder than words really holds weight. It's in that moment when I know for a fact, my appreciation for waking up every day is noticed. It's the smile I give off when I greet others, the wave in the air feeling peoples energy, the heartfelt moments when something goes right and wrong. It gets noticed in the way I carry myself in certain situations and the lessons that I carry with me.

                When I felt the urge to write this article this morning I was looking out my balcony window looking at the grass smiling and taking deep breaths. Remembering how I was living in a crappy hotel for 3/4 months with no view, feeling like crap, working and trying to keep it together for my family, then we found our apartment.what once was a view of dirt from the balcony when we first got here, is now a field of green beauty leading into the mountains.  I sort of felt guilty for not saying the actual word" Thank you". But now I feel easy and like I rid myself of guilt and judgment because seeing what I wrote shows I appreciate my life and the people in it. The words may not always fall from my mouth but it walks with my soul every day and to me, that's a connection most won't ever get the chance to experience. How do you show your appreciation for life?

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Hair And Makeup A million Dollar Business verse African American Women The Target On Self Confidence & Priorites?

Ladies, I'm not sure if it's been said loud and clear enough but this topic is one that I feel strongly about. It confirms more of what I was saying for a while now about hair, makeup, and our priorities. Popular rapper Meek Mills has been going back and forth on social media throwing shade at his now ex-lover Nicki Minaj. Being petty talking about her ways and looks he doesn't like now there broken up. We as females can't deny the rant he went in on about fake hair, fake eyelashes, fake butts, changing the skin color with makeup and looking like someone different when all that stuff is not on. Now the pettiness is he was with her for a year why not tell her while you were with her?

I hear his point ladies but he and most males still chase after the women who look like this and I personally feel like it's being shoved down our throats to look that way. So if this is what men are showing interest in, of course, women are trying to change to their liking but the backlash is "YOUR FAKE! " Even though we women know different races wear weave AND TRUST THEY DO and wear heavy makeup they don't get chewed up and spit out like we do against our own race. These changes do play a major role in the African American society and it plays into "will we ever be enough"? Which brings me to wondering isn't it time for us to take care of our real hair, our skin etc so we don't have to be considered fake? So we can be secure in our own skin regardless of men or societies approval?

 For me growing up I recall saying I was against makeup and being too made up to go now where all I needed was my earrings and my lip gloss. As I got older and got out more, I did notice the effect makeup had on women. I tried a little of eyeshadow in high school but it wasn't my thing like it was for a lot of the popular girls. It wasn't until I got my first real job at a women's retail shop where makeup was put into the clean professional appearance look. Days I didn't wear make-up female customers treated me like a kid who didn't know anything. Then, on the days I wore makeup they showed me WAY MORE RESPECT and wanted my advice on fashion.
 I guess this falls under the category look the part.

 It was strange to get this reaction but as a teen, it did take a toll on me. With that being said, can you imagine the pressure women feel now as an adult and dealing with corporate jobs and keeping up with the trends? So yes in a sense this goes past the pressure of men wanting a female to look dolled up all the time but even businesses. Trust, I don't think ANYTHING IS WRONG with makeup if your skin and health are being taken care of underneath. I do have a PROBLEM with bad acne and skin issues that can be a serious health matter being covered up without looking into the real reason it is occurring. This is not to take away from women with a few blemishes or a childhood scar you want to cover up a little. But a full dolled up face transforming you into someone COMPLETELY DIFFERENT TAKING AWAY FROM YOUR BEAUTIFUL ATTRIBUTES YOU WERE Supposed TO ENHANCE JUST A LITTLE is a no.

 I enjoy weaves and wigs, love the creative look and style it gives off to our moods and outfits. Trust nothing is wrong with switching it up and giving your real hair a break. My first year going natural I cut my hair off to a brush cut and didn't like short hair. But I was going through knots and thinning with a perm and had started off with one since elementary school so I didn't even know what my real texture was like. We would usually get a perm every 3 months for some sooner just because we saw waves at the roots. I cut my hair off really to get back to my god given crown and to learn more about it not because of a trend.

I wore wigs to help my hair grow out healthy under the wig which it did, fast and beautifully. I gave my hair a break and wore it out sometimes and my family was more so" wear it all the time are you ashamed"? But these remarks were from family members who live by the perm no matter what and wouldn't dare think of going natural. I'm not taking away from women who rock perms because you can have healthy hair with a perm too. I just feel we as women of color and different texture hair, don't need to go by the guideline. Maybe we should only get a perm 2x a year and definitely focus on deep conditioning more.

 I personally love my curly texture which is the main reason I won't go back to a perm.Be outside, caught in the rain and not have to worry about looking crazy.You can have your hair curly too with a perm, but not your natural pattern. I love the big messy untouched look, especially if I didn't want to do my hair or touch it. Yes, it was easy to throw on a wig and handle my business for the day.But when I got back home that thing was on the floor or bed somewhere lol.

 All this is fine and dandy, but it is a bad thing when your real hair is unhealthy, falling out and not being looked into to see if there could be a health problem causing distress to your tresses. Some don't care, put a wig or weave in, neglect their real hair and end up hating what God has given them on their head. Then, want to feel bad if their wig gets snatched off! Feeling bad, embarrassed and less confident. This isn't to women who are going through lupus and cancer who know why their hair is fallen out. I commend you beautiful ladies that found out what was the problem and you're working on it. Wear a wig until you can grow your crown back it's all good.

 Even if it's permanent and It can't grow back, you still have a true reason to invest in hair assistance.  Having an illness and disease can no way shape or form add into this topic for me, I'm only talking about the women who use wigs and makeup as a crutch, neglecting themselves.Who rather spend $500 on fake hair when THEY HAVE A HEAD FULL but don't purposely take care of it. They cause it to break off then have to rely on assistance and no priorities are all messed up. Wouldn't you rather treat your real hair to a nice style FOR LESS?

The African American community spends so much on weave a year we could've put down on a car, a house or start our own businesses, open savings account and buy life insurance. Guess this is one of those things where women truly are blowing money on things they don't need. The #1 problem but booming market for OTHER RACES is hair. I know we all want the finer things in life etc, but when your bills are behind, your appearance is all you got, your heading to become a pretty homeless person.

All jokes aside, I just want so much more for us African American women because we been through so much and have so much more to offer. Women in general I think are phenomenal but there's no blind eye for the ethnic race of women who get looked past. I love living in a melting pot of races but nothing is wrong with uplifting and wanting more for our own race who needs a push, especially if it causes self-destruction that can be avoided.

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Fab trendy diets or eating for your blood type diet whats the secret?

In this day in age, we have all became so obsessed with diets and eating right but it never dawned on me till now we've been trying the wrong diets. One day I and my fiance was just watching TV and he came out randomly and said " You ever wonder why couples who been together for a long time bodies change at diff rates? They eat the same foods sometimes more or fewer proportions than the other but one ends up having high blood pressure or diabetes etc? One gets very heavy in weight and the other spouse may get lean or stay the same?" I said to him how I imagine family genetics and hereditary symptoms run in family's and some people catch it early or later on. He looked at me and said" You ever thought about eating for your blood type? " and shockingly I  responded no because I don't even know my blood type.They told me my blood type after my first pregnancy in 2015 but other than that I never paid attention or wondered about blood type.He said he recalled listening to a radio host by the name of Heather B a short time ago who he recalled her talking about the importance of eating for your blood type. 
Never hearing this conversation in my life or even considering my blood type would matter so much, this is the deepest, makes the most since topic that can be the true fountain of youth of our existence. When you go to the doctors we are observed as obese or underweight by a weight and height chart from years ago. When they ask us about our family health history we write it down and that's that. There was never a time my blood type was brought up to me why I  experience what I experience after them asking me what all do I eat.  So now that I've come across this topic  I wonder has anyone tried these blood type diets and how did their bodies react to it. Knowing this I'm so curious to do some research and take control of my health the right way but I'm currently 21 weeks pregnant So my adventure would have to start when I'm all healed and ready to workout.Us not knowing our blood type could be why our health can be bad at one point from feeding ourselves harmful things then good because we are eating the right things. Can knowing the right foods for our bodies save us from cancer, tumors, fibroid, inflamed hearts, arthritis etc? I never was a fan of medicine so if this new discovery helps I'm all for it, what about you?

                                        

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Hair ,Society, Where Do You fit In?

            Its a breath of fresh air to see natural styles such as box braids make a come back in this day and age. For the past 2 years based off my own experience I have found more
help for the African American woman who wants to embrace her god gift and take a break from the weaves, wigs and extensions. By all means am I against false hair I love it
its how make up is too an outfit its another accessory. Its what makes being a girl so MUCH MORE FUN then boys who would need time to switch up their styles,  We as women go through enough in life why cant we have fun with our choices of hair? I will admit wearing weave all the time and NOT embracing your own hair comes off like your ashamed .The same way how some invest $500 dollars into extensions ,I feel should be invested into making sure their real hair is healthy as well.
Through the years a war has been brewing about dark skin vs light skin and now its natural vs relaxed hair. At the end of the day if you can love who you are and how you look without makeup and extensions that's all that matters. If you can find a man who likes you both ways dressed up and dressed down that's all that matters. It all comes down to respect and love and those words have been hard on African American woman. Its even to the point where other ethnicity's  are riding the natural wave adding hash tags to pictures of themselves as if anyone has ever turned them down from a job. This is where the natural community gets upset because they feel they cant have something just for them. All ethnicity's wear weave even if its just to add volume to the lifeless hair but there is only one group that's gets railroaded hard about their texture. Its even to the point where making a living for yourself is based on your hair for certain work fields .
So to see box braids which are one of many natural styles make its way to the lime light it excites me. I myself who's been natural for 4 yrs but use wigs for a protective style and quick fix have gotten wet and wavy highlighted braids. There are so many different styles and textures and colors when it comes to braids out there your bound to find a look for yourself. Its always been out there since I was a little girl and I'm 27 now and I thought wearing braids now I would be considered wack or the look is played out. I even found a guy who's more impressed with my natural hair then my wigs :) now tell me that's not a bonus?  We are not out hair ladies but society is making it appear that way. If you have to play the part and be who society wants you to be for the better pay then I say handle your business . But just remember you have a life outside of your job and the freedom to be you !


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Three Month Old Layla Smith Another Accident or Another Case Of Unnecesary Force By Police Over Public Breast Feeding Fake or Real ?

Today August 10,2014  I come across an article that made my blood boil. Babies are suppose to be gods precious gift to earth. But people have changed so much and are filled with so much dislike that our precious gems aren't safe anymore. Now the news article has not discussed ethnic background for the officer or victims so I will go off of details and that alone. Either way police have been using their force distastefully lately and think they can justify it by saying don't resist or don't talk back. I never fully understood why we couldn't question officers when they approach US and say we have done something wrong  or they BELIEVE we have done something wrong. Am i suppose to not say anything when I was taught since I was a child in school that we have a right to speak because of the 1st amendment? Speak when spoken too as the saying goes . If I'm talking in a respectful tone why should I have to get spoken down too because an officer thinks I'm asking to much?  Right is right and wrong is wrong  and unfortunately we the people don't know about wrong until we fall victim too "its against the law" to do x,y and Z.

Lately Mothers have been the target of being attacked by people because they feel mothers shouldn't breast feed in public its distasteful. Now my true honest question about that is , " Mothers is it possible for you to pump enough milk and put them in bottles so you don't have to breast feed in public or does the milk go bad if you bottle it up?" Overall motherhood is a beautiful thing, I am no mother yet so I don't know all the rules but what I do know is this harassment has become COMMON. I personally don't want to see another woman's boob and I don't want to see them get attacked either. Suzanne Smith would be the latest mother under attack after witnesses say they saw her breastfeeding her daughter three month old Layla Smith in queens on the bench after Layla started crying frantically. Its reported Ms.Smith knew her child was hungry so she tended to Layla and was shortly approached by an officer. Now it wasn't mentioned if she had a cover over Layla but she had a breast feeding bra, which I'm not sure what it looks like. 

The officer who goes by the name Fitzsimmons approached  Ms.Simmons telling her to stop breastfeeding because its indecent of her to do it in public. As onlookers watched and chimed in witnesses report Ms.Simmons spoke respectfully and calm with the officer as he told her its against the law. Others tried to tell him he was wrong so my take on that evidence the people around her weren't too bothered by her public feeding . Now I haven't heard anything about breastfeeding being against the law but Ms.Simmons hasn't either as she  explained that too him.  He told her she didn't know sh** about the law and told onlookers to mind their business. The bus shows up and Ms.Simmons goes to stop and get herself together and exposed her boob to onlookers and the officer for a second which made officer Fitzsimmons very upset. Now I wasn't there so of course I cant say she did it on purpose or not being that everyone said she was being respectful but mistakes happen.

Next thing you know the officer pulled Ms.Simmons by the back of her collar as she was walking onto the bus and down goes baby Layla falling out of her mothers arms and onto the hard pavement cracking her Little head open. Now onlookers say the officer did the unbelievable next , he looked and saw the baby bleeding on the ground and continued to handcuff Ms.Simmons as if what happened didn't just happened. He told the crowd "it was an accident but you cant resist arrest". Onlookers fled to the baby and Ms.Simmons got arrested. Now of course he and his team are using Ms.Simmons should of listened and not resist arrest.REALLY?? All this comes off to me as a warning ,let her continue her day and get to where she has to go. Now its being reported that the baby didn't survive the trauma and has passed away today and the incident took place August 6,2014.  Officer Fitzsimmons at first was set to go on paid leave pending a full investigation but now has been updated to he dropped from all charges.

I don't know about y'all but I know Its so many changes in the law the dos and don't and we as people dont hear or know about it till its too late.I personally think every household should have an updated copy just like most have old and new bibles. we will never know how to survive if we don't know what we are up against. At the end of the day we get judged here on earth by people just like us based off of feelings and evidence, whats justice and whats unjustified. This incident is ridiculous and my heart goes out to Ms.Simmons and her entire family ".R.i.p Layla gone to soon but I and others are trying to spread the word so your not forgotten even though you haven't had much time to be remembered"

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some are saying this article is fake but either way it touched me enough to write wrote about it. That's my opinion real or not I stand my ground because overall we live in a crazy world where anything can happen 

Tragedy Repeating itself But 10x worse? "Travon Martin vs Mike Brown "

I'm no fan of the system myself but I can't help but feel like the war isn't only in Iraq. Our enemies aren't only foreign and presented as the worst kind. Our biggest threat are those in uniform with a badge that tell us they protect and serve right here at home. Our enemies are becoming our suppose to be American heroes but how can we call them heroes when they don't have super powers. Growing up you watch all the cartoon super heroes and the bad guys start off winning but in the end the hero comes along and save a life and save the day. Well today in the year 2014 our days are embedded with distasteful murder and unjustified results. African Americans don't want to keep marching and protesting but how can we not when we constantly get the short end of the stick even when we do good.
  We all know the story of Travon Martin which shook the nation with its back and forth trial. With all the evidence given the case still had hope for Zimmerman leaving a family to mourn and fight for justice at the same time.Can you imagine how much strength and courage it takes to hold it together through something like that? Now we have another young man by the name of Mike Brown visiting his grandmother when he was gun downed in broad daylight around 2pm Saturday August 9,2014 in Ferguson Missouri,  Whats the reason ? No one really knows and the news is reporting there's talk of brown  stealing  $1.00 cigar but this information isn't thrown into reasoning just yet. Even if so ,is that a good enough reason for 8 to 10 shots to be let off into this young man?
Brown was not from the area and was set to start his first day of college this coming Monday but will unfortunately not see the day. People don't understand how hard it is to raise African American males in this rough day and age.The courage they have to have in their own neighborhoods is a challenge within itself. Even though in most cases theres black on black crime this case will always break mothers all across the world ,who understand the struggle heart. It will touch any individual who has a compassionate heart because someone life has been taken from them and the reason doesn't hold a good enough purpose. Brown laid in the street for 4 hours while a crowd began to form wondering why this incident has happened.His father holding a sign and looking at his son lifeless body lay on concrete picture has been circling the net . He cannot hold his son because he would mess up the crime scene that the police seem to be taking there sweet time with. Yes we all know time plays a role with an investigation but I couldn't imagine being a witness in this situation let alone be a family member . What do you do? what do you say ?How would you feel?
We seem to loose our young unarmed Black male teens to  police officers who we find out later are Caucasian . Yes times have changed since back in the day , we have all different types of ethnicity wearing the uniform and badge to protect and serve now.  But do we really feel protected ? Has much really changed?  We the people don't want to make it a black vs white thing all the time but lets do the research of how many Black officers killed another race and got fired WITH NO PAY and thrown into jail. As oppose to the white officer who killed another minority race meaning Hispanics and Blacks and got SUSPENDED with PAID time off until the investigation is complete.Then go through a little therapy then BOOM their back on the streets. Even with all the evidence showing Caucasian officers  at fault they still gets off MORE OFTEN then they should. So what are we suppose to use in our defense if footage evidence ,audio evidence and witnesses hold no weight?
This investigation is very fresh and I'm sure days to come we will hear a bunch of non sense to discredit Brown to make the officer seem like he did the world a favor. But in my eyes this officer  took a young man who could of been a doctor, a lawyer, an officer, an athlete,a scientist ,a father , a man that could of done good if given the chance. I'm hoping the media doesn't use the excuse " he dressed like a gangster" because once upon a time clothes back in the day for Caucasians too went through its stages of appropriate and not appropriate. Back then it was 'bad boy vs prep boy " and I'm sure all the teens wore clothes that fit there mood and they thought were cool. No one murdered them over it they let them live their wild lives and grow up to find themselves .
My prayers go out to the family and friends of Mike Brown may they find courage and strength to get  through this unfortunate event. I know they never imagined the day would come knocking on their door in this day in age but we the people really have to wake up and stop living in the clouds. I'll never understand why they fear us so much and feel they are the only race that can live life and make mistakes and still get a pat on their back "its OK ". I'm not a racist and I have nothing personal against Caucasians. I have something against wrong doings  doesn't matter if your white,Hispanic or black.I'm well aware one bad apple doesn't represent every apple but seriously enough is enough. Some of my viewers will say "if your not a racist then why not talk about the black guy who murdered the white cop"?
My honest response to that would be because blacks WILL  get big  news coverage when they're the ones at fault and being thrown in jail .But cases of a white man murdering a black man only  get simple blog coverage like mines and online shine for a short amount of time then boom its swept under the rug like dirt, never making it to the BIG news .  But if enough of us read up on and share and care enough , this story and many quiet kept stories WILL REACH THE BIG NEWS ONE DAY . I honestly wish we all could get along but from what I see that's not a long lived dream.

Natural women V.S Dating

So the topic that came across today was "why does it seem like the only dudes who date naturalista women are dread head men or men who look extra hairy themselves with the long beard and scarfs on their heads?" Its very rare you see a clean cut brother with waves or braids dating a natural woman. hes always with the long wavy /straight weaved hair chick. OR IF the young woman hair is naturally long and if she decides to cut it the guy acts a little weird towards her and eventually she starts wearing weave until her hair grows back? Are the men brainwashed into the silky European look so much that there pressuring their lady to look the part? what do you think ?

Jetz All honesty: Letter2 Lee Thompson Young R.i.p My hollywood crus...

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Letter2 Lee Thompson Young R.i.p My hollywood crush since I was Little

I guess the honest reason why I cant believe this whole event is reality because watching you then and now there is so much growth .But I also know how it feels too be happy for a short time and depression to come knocking at your door no longer being a guest but apart of you. I been battling depression since the age of 9 and no I haven't got help because I cant afford it. But even then getting help and breaking through is a 50/50 chance. I have more days I dislike who I am, where I am and what i look like instead of liking who I am, where I am in life and what I look like. Its like no matter the pictures I post, the laughter's I have during the day a sad lonely feeling creeps up. Even being in a room full of friends don't help get my mind straight at times. Its hard waking up every morning working and putting on your love cap to share with others when most of the time you don't get it back.

Your passing has hit me in such away because I didn't have the courage after my few attempts to do what you have done . I promised myself I wouldn't go to the extreme to feel the need to take my own life and I haven't made an attempt since my nana passing away. I'm so sorry that you didn't or couldn't find another way to deal with the many things in your life that made you feel like giving up. I'm not saved but I do pray and wish that a humble soul like yourself go to the pearly gates and not down below .The spotlight blinded me and I would of never thought I see your name across the screen with r.i.p next too it, at least not for yrs too come. Things like this happen all the time but because of all the great things you've accomplished your situation has been all over the news. I do pray that the family finds strength in this sudden mishap and find away to forgive themselves if guilt is eating away at them.

I'm really heartbroken and knots are in my throat when saying your name now because I know if not completly ,a lil how you feel. Now I sort of see how others will react if I decided to cut my own path short. Those thoughts are no longer in my mind but the constant badgering to myself is. I am my worst critic and I know I need too change that. rest in heaven Lee for I hope you truly are at rest. I'm gonna miss you , I was so happy to see you back on the screen doing your thing. gone too soon but only god knows why. Peace

e and luv LEE PEACE AND LUV

Jetz All honesty: Too hot to Eat ?

Jetz All honesty: Too hot to Eat ?:          This 2013 summer 5 day heat wave has sent many to not feel hungry, I know this because I too really don't care for a meal as ...

Too hot to Eat ?

         This 2013 summer 5 day heat wave has sent many to not feel hungry, I know this because I too really don't care for a meal as of lately .With temperatures up in the 90 leaving residents across the tri state to deal with hotter weather then Florida and down south areas which are known to be the best hot vacation places, what can you do in this heat and what can you eat and drink in this heat? This time around Donkin donuts and Ritas and places that sell cold drinks businesses are booming ,they are the go to place especially Donkin donuts. 24 hrs service with this 24 hr heat give you the satisfaction to stay inside during the day and when temperature drop just a tad bit by night time you can sneak on out and get your coolata and smoothies. But as the news mentioned we need to stay away from caffeine it leaves you more dehydrated then you think. Water is good but the news has been booming about drinking Gatorade and power drinks to put minerals back into your body which is very important being they you'll be sweating a lot. Just like when athletes play hard and work up a good sweat we normal people lol will be doing the same thing just by standing still.
Now that we got the drinks in order what about foods. Well I personally have become a fan of buying big watermelons and chopping them up and freezing them. Instead of always going out buying ice cream fruit bars with high sugar and other things in it ,why not make your own natural fruit snack. This snack is so good I end up eating 2 big halves of watermelon and I don't feel guilty because it taste good and I feel good. Another snack or breakfast would be 2 slices of toasted bread wheat or regular with butter and jelly. This is light and fulfilling and holds me over from hunger for a good 3 to 4 hrs. Another good one would be toasted bread spread with peanut butter and apple slices on the side. We all know peanuts are a great source of a fat burner so with this food and the heat combined how can you go wrong?
Last but not least I can't forget to mention salads and subs ! These too will cover you when it comes to having an actual meal and itll leave you full and satisfied. With fast food places and quick checks giving you options of different subs and salads your taste buds can enjoy a different dish every day. These are a few things that worked for me and hopefully itll work for you too. We have to beat the heat not let it beat us !


*source of this picture is credit to tldm.org

Newton CT Fatal shooting : Reshaping schools while Regaining trust

  The tragedy that happen within coming weeks too Christmas  at Sandy Hook elementary school  struck the nation hard. Along with the town of  newton CT  ,nations around the world mouths were left wide open,eyes in blank mode and hearts so heavy you felt like a ton of bricks fell on you. With Christmas closing in every ones minds were focused on buying there children and loved ones gifts that would light up there faces and belly's full of food and aching from good laughter. But the act of 1 lost young man with disorders took away 20 young children 12 girls, 8 boys and 6 adult women and his own mothers life taken place at her home. Although many will without hesitation like to throw torches at the shooter he too was a victim. Not only too turning the gun on himself but to disorders people pay no mind too.Im not saying what the shooter did should be excused but he was a bright young man with no soul.
  If he took his own life without taking innocent little ones this tragedy would not hurt and affect as many people as it does. yes suicide is always hurtful but MURDER seems so UNFORGIVABLE that theres no coming back from it. These parents will be picking out small coffins instead of watching their children pick out their gifts from under the tree. The women who were teachers and protectors in the children's eyes wont make it home to be with their loved ones and sing carols and enjoy their holiday. The survivors wont see their teachers or classmates and will be scared because their safety net was taken from them. The surviving parents are scared to send their children back and feel guilty to even think about having a Christmas. This town is shattered and before they can even think about reshaping security they have to mourn.
 Radio station got calls called in from across the world talking about gun control as if the shooter went to the store and purchased it. Alot of times in cases like this gun buying would be an issue but these guns were from his family home. Callers want teachers to carry guns and to me that is stupid. The best and easiest way we can start  reshaping the school and regaining the towns trust  is by getting bullet proof classroom doors and windows and making sure each door has a lock. This is  a start in my eyes and idea that sounds much better then having teachers carry guns. Also  as scary as it may seem for young ones maybe all schools should have metal detectors. It'll be the same way if a child was boarding a flight and had to go through the security procedures to get on a plane.
 The world we live in is changing and you can never be too prepared but aware. peoples mental state of minds are getting worse by the day and we can no longer ignore illnesses that can harm others. Now report says that the shooters disorders shouldn't of caused rage but they also don't know what was going on in his mind . This young man killed his own mother,his security blanket . My heart goes out to everyone who was affected and I pray they find strength in this tough time . Even to the shooters family who are in disbelief and want answers as to why this happened as well. I will not bring this  situation up again as I respectfully would like to let these families mourn. I just wanted to throw out a suggestion as to how we can help reshape schools and basically help our Little ones feel secure again. There will always be some sick minded person out there plotting on ways to destroy whatever they can . I just wanted to give a hand and a prays for better days too come.

Its Not Your size Its the designers

So I work for a popular retail company thats been around for awhile .With competitor stores like JCpenny,Bloomingdales and macys selling the same vendors we do, the few dollar difference is key. Customers will quickly compare prices and fuss to you as if we're walmart and we're suppose to match the price. Well if price difference wasnt enough complaints from customers now their complaining about the cut. In this case this is a PROBLEM for most designer clothing companies which affects women of all sizes and ages.

Not only do I merchandise and help suggest items for customers but I also give them the women to women honesty talk. Alot of women are stuck on a size number for bottoms and tops and think they are gaining weight if they dont FIT into the merchandise."ITS NOT YOU LADIES ITS THE DESIGNERS". The fashion industry is booming with new designers from across seas who are trying to venture off into the u.s and the u.s are thrilled to get fresh fashion visions. But the down fall to trying these new designers is the cut and fit of the merchandise on us americans who are definitely cut different.
Its sort of sad to watch old ways be stormed by new ways because somethings are better left alone. Clothes are more then just fabric to women its a mood changer/confidence builder.For most women they have favorites and not so favorite designers because its all about how the clothing compliments her shape. But what happens when the new trend is telling you your not thin enough and your the average size of most American women starting at a size 6. Now there trying to say a size 6 is plus size and honestly most kids are bigger then a 6 now so imagine how an adult feels. Ladies its not the end of the world your not the problem you can take a breather.
Instead of beating yourself up and starving yourself shop around and always pick up 2 sizes because most likely your in between sizes. Get a feel for how the clothes run and if your wallet is comfortable spending that amount.Dont let a designer tell you how your suppose to look and be built you dont have to help build there dream line especially when theres so many more designers out there from right here in America who can relate to your body proportion. Although I feel bad for the older women who are comfortable with there size and have the mid section bulge and love handles. They are the original loyal customers who will spend alot of money but hey let that be the designers lost. Shop some where else and wear it well and fell confident again!

sacrifices for the American dream

 Hungry that i am but i make sacrifices to get through the current
trying to maintain uplifted when my energy is heat waving above the ground
Im here to impress no one but myself and I can careless who  is around
latest trends trick many minds and make them forget about responsibilities
Dont have the needs but go for the want and what is all the rave this month
Gosh if only i didnt have responsibilities and im not talking paying a cell bill

grawling goes the tummy but at least i ate twice today there some people out there who cant even get satisfied by the smell of food

I am grateful but Im also a hard worker who shouldnt have to miss meals

I work hard I get double digit pay but I still live check to check
each time i start saving a set back comes and my nerves go on the run
I handle the matter blood sweat and tears and I sleep to wake to the next day

Im not trying to keep up im trying to maintain
for the american dream for my generation seems to turn its nose up at us
I feel like we will never get the chance to live it to the fullest
let alone stand close to it or breathe it

2 to 3 jobs and its not even enough for a nice apartment out the hood
they raising prices of rent but hardly want to change pay
they want us to do illegal hustles just to make way
lock us up for not breaking off towards tax no joke this is fact

they dont want us to earn credit ,I built mines but most dont have
they wonder why we walk around always  looking so mad
we smart live right and was raised to go the right path
but some how I always feel like ill never get passed

this aint a skin thing well then again it may be
I have tons of diffrenet race friends so prejudice is not me
but the american dream is my challenge its the one im mad at
its the one thats laughing at me saying "I cant believe you did that"

but through it all i stay humble and hungry for the piece of the pie
I just want whats best for me and my family
well a least before i die !

Jetz All honesty: The Epidemic of R.I.P for kids bullied Is spreadin...

Jetz All honesty: The Epidemic of R.I.P for kids bullied Is spreadin...: Its becoming a trend withing all ethnicities sad to say to go on mediatakeout.com or worldstarhiphop.com and of course our daily news chann...

The Epidemic of R.I.P for kids bullied Is spreading Like Cancer

Its becoming a trend withing all ethnicities sad to say to go on mediatakeout.com or worldstarhiphop.com and of course our daily news channels, to see another child or teen has commit suicide from bullying. Teen bullying has always known about and that was the main reason for fights going on in school. The victim would finally lash out and defend themselves and even if he or she didn't win the fight at least they stood up for themselves.

I'm only 24 but when i was in high school i seen 2 girls get bullied or more say picked on because one was geeky and the other one talked funny and looked like a grandma. No one ever layed a finger on them just called out there names when they walked by or mimicked them when they would say "leave me alone" or kicked there luggage book bag .The luggage book bag was the new thing at the time but only the smart kids who had a thousand and one classes and books invested in it so they wouldn't hurt there backs any more. Of course i would say things like "why are yall bothering her ,leave her alone." But in school i was popular for being the quiet but cool with mostly everybody , short chick and the bully's whom I was some what social with would say "naw she cool as hell I'm just playing with her". Sometimes I'd ask the girls were they ok and they brush it off with saying "yea I'm just not in the mood they want to play and i don't .I just want to be left alone". Which is definitely understandable because what was a laughing matter for others was an embarrassing moment for them.

Now the grandma looking victim and I go way back to elementary school so we have history and a friendship. I never turned phony on anyone just because we got older that was never my thing. She eventually went through some tough times in her life and stayed back in school and seemed to go downhill. So once she got to high school she was a yr behind me but I never treated her different spoke to her every morning and kept it moving. Deep down inside she a girl who's going through alot and her mom was pretty older then everyone elses mom so she was sheltered from alot. Thankfully she didnt let bullying get to her and she's an adult now and has a man and a little family of her own :) .

As for the geeky victim she was SMART and had a motivated spirit to make a change in school and you just knew she would be someone important when she reached adulthood. She graduated a yr before me i never really knew her but I seen her around . One time we had a pep rally and some lames were sitting behind her bothering her and i was sitting like 3 isles down from them and i felt bad. There were some saying leave her alone and some females laughing saying to the bully's " omg you are so stupid , stop leave her alone you gone make her cry" . I looked at her and wondered why she just didnt get up and move but she just sat there and tears filled her eyes a little and was shouting "leave me alone". I'll admit i got a little teary eyed myself and then the unacceptable happened. The bully's took out a matchbook sparked the sticks and started throwing the lit sticks at her. Me personally , I am terrified of fire between my house catching fire and my mom hair catching on fire I don't like lighters or matchbooks. Anyone who tried to use it around me i kindly ask them to go else where with it ,So far people have respected my wishes .

So as the bully is throwing these lit match sticks I'm looking at people laugh and I can just vision her coat catching on fire and i swear i froze up in fear .She went to go lay down and I'm thinking girl get up and move and at this point this must be her hiding and trying to hold emotions in cry for help. She eventually just popped up and ran out the gym and as tempting as i was to go run after her i just stood there in shocked and couldn't imagine how she felt. Where she is now in 2012 i do not know but I'm sure she's out there doing something amazing behind the scenes of a high tech job. However, with that being said bullying has changed so much through the years that its affecting the younger generation as young as 6yrs old now. How can you teach your child to not let bullying bring them down and send them to school everyday?

These kids feel so alone and left out that they take it upon themselves to take their own life which bothers me because what does a 6yr old know about death really? Death is still a mystery too most adults but here it is every few months a child is experimenting with it. I know that there are all these organizations out there that are open to helping troubled kids but parents sit and act like there child is an angel and nothing is wrong. It makes you wonder are the children walking over their parents at home or is this a cry out from the bully's and they take their problems out on others? Either way its wrong and I think parents need to really look at themselves and get to know who they're raising. The epidemic of R.I.P's for young children is no joke and its spreading like cancer. There use to be a time a parents fear for her child was to fail i school and repeat another grade,get sick , break a bone from playing too much ,hit by a car, shot by a stray bullet,drinking, sex,and getting kidnapped. Now you have to fear your child not feeling safe and valued enough that their committing suicide! The solution is in the parents and parents need to strive to be a better role model and safe haven because if your child cant come to you when he or she needs you the most, then you are not doing your motherly duties!

Social media is forgetting about traditional communication and riding the new wave of publicaly humiliating others

I find it quite amazing how people are falling into the social media communication and ignoring the old tradition "dont talk behind my back say it to my FACE ". Well in this case  of social changes I guess it should be "dont talk about me on your wall for the world to see, say what you have to say to me and stop hiding behin the screen " Facebook is a beautiful thing and a curse at the same time. Its reached more connection and boundaries then myspace which leaves many saying "what is a myspace" . Everyone advertises with facebook and it doesn't  look like it'll be slowing down anytime soon.
           Facebook for me first started off as a problem because females were mad there boyfriends would like or comment on my pictures. Remind you these are people I dont know on the day to day bases and live miles away. Alot of times we link because of music and off of other sites and thats all. Other cases me and they guy have been friends for years ,but the girlfriend is NEW and she wants him to cut all ties with any females she feels intimidated by. But in the end I tell her what it is and the dude can vouche for me that he will not delete me because we are friends and she needs to deal with it. Did the girlfriend like this ? Of course not but seriously what can she do about it. He has his own page to network on  and so does she, the world see's your in a relationship and all your forced pictures. Sad thing is the girlfriends wants to be so controlling that they end up breaking up weeks later anyway lol for the WORLD TO SEE.
          Facebook now is a different network  for me now that I've been on it for awhile. I've found family members I never met and family members who I havent seen in years. Its easier to talk to them all at the same time as oppose to them saying  "call me".The only time I'll address them personally is if there is a major personal problem that isn't meant for others to see or know about. Sometimes when im not online i'll text there phone and say hey and to see what their doing but its never a long convo. Its more like a "hey I was thinking about you for a second wanted to know whats going on with you today " Sometimes less is better but it lets them see that randomly they crossed your mind and that they were thought about. This would be the beautiful side of facebook in my eyes.
        The bad side would definitely be when people put on a show and all there business out to get feedback from others and get upset if the feedback isnt what they want to hear. Yes im guilty to venting on Fb from time to time but I dont get to personal and say names.It's more like a speaking out loud moment, a public view maybe leaning to a what should I do. Which isn't to bad because before this site came along yahoo had a ask question forum and people would give their feedback. The issue at hand with fb is when you literally are throwing someone under the bus ,publicaly humiliating them because you have access to do it. This curse has broken up family relationships,kiddy relationships for the kids, and marriages. Communication is and always be key point blank period. But it's the way you go about it and right now  in the social world everyone wants to feel known or famous. So they forget about tradition and go with the new wave and publicaly downgrade themselves,friends and lovers. Some people have gotten killed over social media hypeness but thats not enough to make people stop and think about how they network. WHY?? because they honestly think it'll never happen to them and this person aint stupid enough to address me when really YOUR NOT BOLD ENOUGH TO ADDRESS THEM EITHER SINCE YOUR HIDING BEHIND A KEYBOARD.

Work hard or Dont work hard and still have a life?

So your known as the sweet quet girl at work. Everyone knows you they compliment you on your work, they question you on why your working with them and why arent you working somewhere else ? Is this a good thing or bad thing ,is it a hidden push for you to get out of there before its too late and go do something greater with your life? Alot of times companies have there employees who just complain and complain but never go anywhere. You say to yourself" This job is all hype I bust my behind and the pay isnt even worth it , but its a job". I speak from experience and i can relate .
       Ive been working in the retail business since 2005 and quickly got thrown into the management side. The pay was great but my heart wasnt into it and it felt funny managing older women and girls my age whom i was working with before i moved up as just a sales associate. At first they didnt take me serious because I was young but then they saw my potential and stop giving me a hardtime and started doing there part to help the business. I found myself falling in love with merchandising and thats where my heart is. I didnt have to deal with receipt paperwork, customers complaining , I just had a picture in mind and i captivated it when ever i did a wall or floor set. The best part was watching my art fly off the shelf and making the company sales number go up.Through out the years i tried to stick with merchandising but had to start from the bottom going back to being a sales associate and my pockets are HURTING BAD. Its 2011 and i work as a stock/merchandiser for a billion dollar comopany with high price merchandise a shirt is more then my weekly check!! Do you think im balling because the company is ?? NO WAY NOT AT ALL NOT EVEN CLOSE!
I been trying to stick it out with this job because i want to show long term commitment and help build my resume for merchandising. But each time i look at my check and when i see my co workers who complain i get scared that'll Ill become too comfortable just like them and never leave. I complain now oh yes without a doubt but i also bust my behind and im still driven .Im on a mission but my pockets arent feeling this hurt. Am i wasting my time trying to build my resume when I and everyone else knows that i should take my hard working skills somewhere else? Alot of people bust their behind EVERYDAY but struggle  very hard when they have to face the reality outside of work. Some people will tell you " I make alot of money to do nothing and I love it." so if they balling like that i can say " I love my job I work very hard to make Little pay and that part I hate".It saddens me that some people are living life to the fullest and have family to throw money at them and never work. While others work hard and try to make ends meet while those who can careless about their job reap all the benifits in a FAT CHECK. Something is definitely wrong with this picture.

Is it safe 2 say african american women skin is prone 2 stretchmarks?

In a society where looks is everything proper skin care is a must. But what is proper skin care and how do you go about it? Magazines talk about everything a women she know or do reaching out to all ethnicities, but each ethnicity is different and everyone shouldn try just anything old thing. When it comes to skin care i think it goes by your family line and what you eat or do . Moisturizing is def a key for every thing but no one seems to be able to explain stretchmarks. They say if you gain weight to fast or lose weight to fast or if its hereditary then boom theres your answer. But i know someone who has been small her whole life and bounces between a 5 pound difference and has had stretchmarks since she was a little girl,practically all over. She so tiny and has always been but she is scared for life with strecthmarks and have no kids. To me she physically hasnt changed much I feel her pain and how uncomfortable she is in her own skin and everyone should be comfotable in their own skin right?

Based off of my observations ive seen stretcmarks on african american women more then i have on any other race. Its the cleavage area, sides,hips,thighs inner and out,buttocks and calves. When i see caucasians i more so see spider veins and vericose veins. Even if they are heavy set their skin still show no signs of stretchmarks which makes me wonder ," Is our skin more prone to stretchmarks automatically"? I mean everything about african americans seem to be so different and sensitive. Our skin blemishes and scar up off of anything, the hair HAS to stay moisturized or it goes brittle and is badly damaged, and what everyother saying is out there assuring african american skin is sensitive. Im pretty sure a good amount of women of every race go throug there skin issues , im just saying based off of what i see I think african americans are prone to it. what do you think? If your african american and you want to let us know you skin care regimen hook us up and teach us something we may have been missing . At the end of the day the body is our temple and we must treat it like gold but i also know alot of us neglect our body so lets help one another get on the right track to feel beautiful and comfortable in the skin we're in.